Life Change

Before Christ came into my life, I grew up not really knowing Him. Of course I knew that he saved us and rewarded us happiness in eternity but I didn’t quite understand that. My family and I were not regular churchgoers and I found church rather boring and I didn’t connect fully to what the pastor was saying in his or her sermons. I have celebrated Christmas and Easter every year of my life with presents and food with my family and friends but I didn’t celebrate the true meaning of what those days really meant.

Seven years ago I married a wonderful man named Scott and I have very loving and supportive parents and a great brother who I am close to. I have a job that I love and coworkers that are also friends and are like family to me. I have been dealing with depression for about twenty years or more.  About a year and a half ago my life started to fall apart, slowly. I began to feel empty inside and cried every day. I kept my pain inside from coworkers and friends. I went through life wondering some days “is this it?” or “why can’t it just be over?” I was always looking for something better. I felt inadequate in so many ways. It got to be so bad that I slept all the time and began crying myself to sleep at night.

One day I came across the book “The Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren. Interesting title I thought and at the bottom of the book it read “What on earth am I here for?” That was exactly what I had been asking for the longest time so I began reading it. I couldn’t put it down. It made so much sense to me. It was like someone finally answered my question. I had read tons of self help books and went to several counselors and it was always about me. Now I understand it isn’t about me. My husband Scott and I began going to Soul Purpose Church and there I decided to accept Jesus as my Savior.

Since Jesus Christ has become the “pilot” in my life, I feel protected and loved. I feel a sense that things are OK even when they hurt. I now want to live my life for Him. I feel closer now to my husband and family.  My friendships mean so much more to me. I feel so inspired to live everyday with a smile on my face and feeling that smile on the inside too. I can’t really explain why it happened to me so suddenly but I know that God knows why. He had a reason for me to go through my rough times to get me to this point in my life. I wouldn’t trade it for anything to be where I am today. Thank you for listening to my story and God Bless you.